DL-D: Feelings Denied
by
Dianne <marialla@rockriver.net>

For those of you who didn't get this.. Dianne asked me to forward it because
she kept getting bounces from certain addy's....
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Marialla

    Mari hurried into her bedroom wondering why she had kissed Jason.  "It
was just a 'thank you' for being there for me."  she said to herself.  "He's
just being a friend."

    She began to think about the walk around the warren.  He seemed to be
able to read her emotions and when it was needed their hands seemed to
easily glide together. "Stop it!" she said to herself.  "He's just being a
friend.  I'm just upset with T'rell and it would be unfair to Jason to read
anything into the situation.

    She didn't sleep well, spent most of the night tossing and turning.
Early in the morning before the sun was up Reggie woke her rider.

    <My rider, Flerrion and his rider are leaving the warren to go to Marrid.>

    *Reggie, did you say T'rell was leaving?  Why is he going to Marrid?*

    <Flerrion said they are going to visit a friend there.  A friend that
just had a hatchling.>

    *I didn't even know he knew anyone in Marrid Warren.  Maybe I don't even
know him at all.*

    <I'm sure there is a lot of things you don't know about Flerrion's
rider.  It seems like humans are always learning about each other.    It
take dragons just a little time to get to know each other.>

    Mari sighed.  She knew there would be no more sleeping.  So she went out
to the kitchen.  She started to make a pot of coffee and looked to see what
she had for food.  She had plenty of time and Jason has mentions her cooking
and considering she had so much time she thought she'd fix him breakfast to
kind of repay him for everything he had done for her.  His life had been
rather interupted by requiring him to babysit her.  She enjoyed being with
him, but it was unfair to him.

    She was surprized to see food that she didn't know she had.  She began
to make a rather large breakfast.  Eggs, bacon, and toast.  The aroma was
something that woke Jason out an equally restless night.

    "Either I'm dreaming or I died and went to heaven." he said as he sat up
on the couch.

    Mari peaked her head into the room and smiled shyly.  "Well, I hope that
you're dreaming.  I think I'm coming to depend on you.  You wouldn't happen
to know where all the food came from?"

    "Well you said you didn't have much food in your apartment and while you
were busy, I took a little while to pick up a few things."

    "You shouldn't have."  she stammered.  "You've done so much more than
you should have too."

    "Well, I don't mind...really..." he said, but she wasn't sure that he
really meant it.  "And you know, we did promise Heron."

    "That's just it.  I don't like that promise you made.  I think that I'll
go and talk to Heron about lifting these restrictions.  It's not fair to
you." she said with a little irritation in her voice.  "I'll talk to him
before I go into the office this morning."

    "We did promise." Jason stated.  "Don't expect anything."

    "I do expect it."  she said.  "It's not fair to you, Allora, or me and
it's also not fair to the Warren.  How long is this going to go on.  What if
you're still hanging around when you're assigned to a wing.  This is just
rediculous."

    "Well go ahead, but don't be dissappointed." he said.

    They finished breakfast quietly.  They didn't even converse in small
talk.  Niether knowing quite what to say to the other.  After breakfast as
they left her apartment, Jason was ready to head toward the administative
buildings, but Marialla started heading for the Med Center.

    "Mari?  Where are you going?"  Jason asked, knowing that he would at
least have to stay with her until she was handed over to someone else.

    "It could wait until later today." Jason said, wondering, really why he
said it.  "Nevermind, I know how important it is.  Let's go." 

    "You don't have to go with me." she said.

    "You know I do Mari, if you show up to talk to Heron by yourself you'll
be right back in the Med Center." he replied.

    Mari looked down at the ground.  She thought that maybe it would be
better for Jason if she was back in the med center.  He was uncomfortable
around her.  She could tell, but she enjoyed the time they had spent
together, even though she was slightly uncomfortable herself.

    She tracked down Heron as soon as she entered the med center.  "I need
to talk to you, and it's very important.  Not just to me, but others."  she
continued on without hardly taking a breath. "You need to let me take care
of myself.  I'm really fine now.  I can manage on my own.  Let Jason and
Allora get back to their lives, instead of being my baby sitters."

    "Mari, we made a deal."  Heron said looking into her eyes, forcing her
to turn away.

    "Yes, but I'm so much better now.  I'm working a little every day.  I
just don't really need anyone staying with me at night.  All I'll be doing
is sleeping anyway."  she said.

    "Well I believe you feel that way,  but I'd like to hear what others
think of your behavior lately.  If they all believe you're alright.  After I
talk to Jason, Allora, T'rell and Jayleigh, I'll make my decision."

    "But T'rell isn't even in the Warren.  He left this morning and I don't
know when he'll be back.  He's not that important anyway." she said, not
listening to how she said what she said.

    "Mari, I won't lift the restrictions until I talk to those four people.
Don't argue with me, or you can just forget it. "  

    She felt deflated.  She couldn't believe that it just wasn't obvious to
everyone that she was better.  "Well I feel like arguing, but I can see it
won't do anygood.  Please talk to them quickly.  If you talk to the other
three and they all think I'll do alright, can you release me without talking
with T'rell.  I don't know how long he'll be away."

    "I will make that decision after I talk with the other three."  stated
Heron, "But tonight you'll have to have someone with you.".


(Tag Michael, Joan, and Barb....and John eventually.)


Respectfully Submitted,
Marialla and Regenta


Michael,  you can go onto that night...or leave it up to me.  Your choice.









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<DIV><FONT face=Verdana><STRONG>Marialla</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    Mari hurried into her
bedroom 
wondering why she had kissed Jason.  "It was just a 'thank you' for being 
there for me."  she said to herself.  "He's just being a 
friend."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    She began to think about the 
walk around the warren.  He seemed to be able to read her emotions and
when 
it was needed their hands seemed to easily glide together. "Stop it!" she said 
to herself.  "He's just being a friend.  I'm just upset with T'rell 
and it would be unfair to Jason to read anything into the 
situation.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    She didn't sleep well, spent 
most of the night tossing and turning.  Early in the morning before the
sun 
was up Reggie woke her rider.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    <My rider, Flerrion and 
his rider are leaving the warren to go to Marrid.></FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    *Reggie, did you say T'rell 
was leaving?  Why is he going to Marrid?*</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    <Flerrion said they are 
going to visit a friend there.  A friend that just had a 
hatchling.></FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    *I didn't even know he knew 
anyone in Marrid Warren.  Maybe I don't even know him at 
all.*</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    <I'm sure there is a lot 
of things you don't know about Flerrion's rider.  It seems like humans are 
always learning about each other.    It take dragons just a 
little time to get to know each other.></FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    Mari sighed.  She knew 
there would be no more sleeping.  So she went out to the kitchen. 
She 
started to make a pot of coffee and looked to see what she had for food.  
She had plenty of time and Jason has mentions her cooking and considering she 
had so much time she thought she'd fix him breakfast to kind of repay him for 
everything he had done for her.  His life had been rather interupted by 
requiring him to babysit her.  She enjoyed being with him, but it was 
unfair to him.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    She was surprized to see
food 
that she didn't know she had.  She began to make a rather large 
breakfast.  Eggs, bacon, and toast.  The aroma was something that
woke 
Jason out an equally restless night.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Either I'm dreaming or I 
died and went to heaven." he said as he sat up on the 
couch.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    Mari peaked her head into
the 
room and smiled shyly.  "Well, I hope that you're dreaming.  I think 
I'm coming to depend on you.  You wouldn't happen to know where all the 
food came from?"</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Well you said you didn't 
have much food in your apartment and while you were busy, I took a little while 
to pick up a few things."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "You shouldn't have."  
she stammered.  "You've done so much more than you should have 
too."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Well, I don't 
mind...really..." he said, but she wasn't sure that he really meant it.  
"And you know, we did promise Heron."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "That's just it.  I 
don't like that promise you made.  I think that I'll go and talk to Heron 
about lifting these restrictions.  It's not fair to you." she said with a 
little irritation in her voice.  "I'll talk to him before I go into the 
office this morning."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "We did promise." Jason 
stated.  "Don't expect anything."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "I do expect it."  she 
said.  "It's not fair to you, Allora, or me and it's also not fair to the 
Warren.  How long is this going to go on.  What if you're still 
hanging around when you're assigned to a wing.  This is just 
rediculous."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Well go ahead, but don't be 
dissappointed." he said.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    They finished breakfast 
quietly.  They didn't even converse in small talk.  Niether knowing 
quite what to say to the other.  After breakfast as they left her 
apartment, Jason was ready to head toward the administative buildings, but 
Marialla started heading for the Med Center.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Mari?  Where are you 
going?"  Jason asked, knowing that he would at least have to stay with her 
until she was handed over to someone else.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "It could wait until later 
today." Jason said, wondering, really why he said it.  "Nevermind, I know 
how important it is.  Let's go." </FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "You don't have to go with 
me." she said.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "You know I do Mari, if you 
show up to talk to Heron by yourself you'll be right back in the Med
Center." he 
replied.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    Mari looked down at the 
ground.  She thought that maybe it would be better for Jason if she was 
back in the med center.  He was uncomfortable around her.  She could 
tell, but she enjoyed the time they had spent together, even though she was 
slightly uncomfortable herself.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    She tracked down Heron as 
soon as she entered the med center.  "I need to talk to you, and it's very 
important.  Not just to me, but others."  she continued on without 
hardly taking a breath. "You need to let me take care of myself.  I'm 
really fine now.  I can manage on my own.  Let Jason and Allora get 
back to their lives, instead of being my baby sitters."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Mari, we made a
deal."  
Heron said looking into her eyes, forcing her to turn 
away.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Yes, but I'm so much better 
now.  I'm working a little every day.  I just don't really need
anyone 
staying with me at night.  All I'll be doing is sleeping anyway." 
she 
said.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Well I believe you feel
that 
way,  but I'd like to hear what others think of your behavior
lately.  
If they all believe you're alright.  After I talk to Jason, Allora, T'rell 
and Jayleigh, I'll make my decision."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "But T'rell isn't even in
the 
Warren.  He left this morning and I don't know when he'll be back.  
He's not that important anyway." she said, not listening to how she said what 
she said.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "Mari, I won't lift the 
restrictions until I talk to those four people.  Don't argue with me, or 
you can just forget it. "  </FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    She felt deflated.  She 
couldn't believe that it just wasn't obvious to everyone that she was 
better.  "Well I feel like arguing, but I can see it won't do 
anygood.  Please talk to them quickly.  If you talk to the other
three 
and they all think I'll do alright, can you release me without talking with 
T'rell.  I don't know how long he'll be away."</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana>    "I will make that decision 
after I talk with the other three."  stated Heron, "But tonight you'll
have 
to have someone with you.".</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Verdana><STRONG>(Tag Michael, Joan, and Barb....and John 
eventually.)</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Verdana><STRONG>Respectfully Submitted,</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Verdana><STRONG>Marialla and Regenta</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
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<DIV><FONT face=Verdana><STRONG>Michael,  you can go onto that night...or 
leave it up to me.  Your choice.</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
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