(Don't remember the day for Jasra.. John can you fill in :)

Kalewyn and Danielle
***

Danielle stretched her arms above her head, feeling a little stiff and
sore, but smiling as she saw the reason she felt this way laying beside
her still asleep. Kay had come to be with her when she needed someone. No
matter what she had done to him, he still cared for her. She reached down
and brushed his black hair out of his face, and softly kissed his
forehead. He stirred, and slowly opened his eyes.

"Good morning" Danielle said softly, smiling at him. "How did you sleep?"

He looked up at her and nodded, a sadness already growing in his heart. He
had done it again. All Danielle had to do was to look at him, and he fell
all over himself .. Tara would never understand .. or likely forgive him.
He rolled over to his side, pulling his hand between them as he began to
sign, *Danielle .. I'm sorry ..*

Danielle interrupted him, grabbing his hands between hers, leaning over
and softly kissing him on the lips. "There is nothing to be sorry for. I
wanted you, just like you wanted me. I am sure the healers won't like it,
but who says they even have to know." Danielle giggled softly.

He squeezed her hands gently and pulled one free, *We keep doing this ..
we keep making the same mistake .. over and over.*

Danielle frowned. "What do you mean, mistake?" She looked at him warily.
"Making love to me is a mistake?"

*You have been through alot, Danielle. When we make love, all we do is
cloud our relationship .. Even you have to admit that we are not meant to
be.* Kay shook his head *I will always love you, as I'm sure in some way
you love me .. but we are not *in* love with each other.*

Danielle pulled her hands away from his. "So, then why did you bother to
come? I thought you cared about me. I thought maybe you had come to try
and give me another chance." She looked at him slightly hurt. "If thats
not why you came, then did you just come for the sex?" Anger seeped into
her voice and expression.

*Gods no!* Kay was taken aback.*That's not why I came .. I came because I
had to be sure you were okay. I was worried about you. I never expected
that .. *this* would happen .. or at least I had hoped we would have
learned something ..* he hung his head, *.. that I would have learned
something. I never wanted to hurt you.*

Danielle looked at him. "Then why can't we pick up where we left off and
try again? Possibly even try for another baby. Would there be anything
wrong with trying?"

Another baby? Suddenly Kay's eyes filled with understanding. *Danielle, is
that what this is about? The baby you lost?* He felt a sick wave wash over
him.. he had to tell her .. He couldn't let this come from anyone else.
*And there were complications .. with you .. and the baby ..*

Danielle looked puzzled. "Complications?" Her look was saddened. "I know
that I lost the baby, and I know I probably lost some blood and I am a bit
tired, but I don't feel bad."

*They say that .. there will be no more babies, Danielle,* he told her,
*I'm .. so sorry ..*

Danielle looked stunned. No more babies? She knew that when she had first
gotten pregnant she had not been very happy about it, but as her pregnancy
had progressed, she had begun to look forward to the idea of having a
child. "No more...?" Danielle looked up at Kay, tears in her eyes. "Are
they sure?" she asked hopeing that there was some chance.

Kay nodded, pouring all his sympathy into his gaze, wishing there was some
way to make this part easier for her.

Danielle looked at him and how his eyes looked at her, seeing pity in
them. "Don't look at me like that! Don't look at me with pity! I don't
want you here if you're only here because you feel sorry for me!. If thats
all it is, just go!"

*You are important to me, Danielle,* he told her sitting up, *whether you
want to believe it or not, you are, otherwise I would not have come all
this way to see you. You were my first friend here .. the first person
that I can ever remember who liked me even as I am.. who saw some worth in
me. There is so much I owe you.*

"Owe me?" Danielle looked at him angrily. "You don't owe me anything. I
cared for you because I loved you, even thought I was in love with you at
one time. I was with you because of that. You don't owe me for loving
you!"

*You are so angry ..* he shook his head, *I'm messing this all up again.
Don't you see .. I know you care for me.. and that you 'thought' you were
in love with me at one time. But you weren't .. and I wasn't either. At
the time, we both needed each other, perhaps I needed you more .. and you
were willing to accept that and offer me what I needed for a time. And for
that I will always be grateful, and I will always love you because of it.*

"Why can't we have that again? We are good together. Why can't we just try
again?" Danielle looked at him, wondering what was wrong with her, that no
man wanted to stay with her.

Kay thought for a moment, wondering how it was he was going to tell her
about Tara. There was simply no way around it .. it was going to have to.
He felt ashamed that he had taken so long to do so. *I've met someone..
someone that I really think is the one I'm supposed to be with. I didn't
expect to fall in love with her the way I have .. gods I'd never expected
to ever feel the way I do. She's good for me, and I will be returning to
her ..*

Danielle looked stunned. "So, you think you are in love with this woman,
but whose bed are you lying naked in? Not hers!"

Danielle's words stung him, and he visibly winced against them, *I know ..
and I feel horrible about that. But there is just something between you
and I .. something that is so strong .. but Danielle .. it's not love.
It's .. heat .. passion .. but not something to build a relationship on.*

"You once thought it was enough to be mates." Danielle said softly. She
looked at him. "I think its time that you go, Kay. Return to this woman
you are in love with, and hope she can forgive you...and trust you again."
She looked at him, her eyes searching his. "And I hope that she is more
gullible than I am, because I sure wouldn't."

Kay was saddened by the words spoken by her. He had hurt her .. though it
had not been what he had wanted to do. *I'm sorry, Danielle .. I'm so
sorry ..* He pushed back the sheets and reached for his tossed clothes
pulling them on as quickly as he could. He had hoped things would go
better then they had .. but once again he had messed up .. and messed up
big time. Her words frightened him .. because in his heart, it was his
biggest fear that she would be right and that Tara would not forgive him..
and really why should she?

"Just go." Danielle said, turning her back on him.

Having pulled on his clohes and taking one last look at her back .. he
lowered his head and exited her bedroom, <Time to go, My Sabbith .. no
more time for goodbyes>

Danielle heard him leaving her bedroom, and then knew she could not let
him go like this. Too many people had walked out of her life with hard
feelings, and where had that gotten her...alone. She slid back the covers
quickly and ran towards the dragons chambers. (Violet, tell him to stop)

<Wait, Kalewyn> Violet's silvery voice sounded softly in his head, <Please
wait .. just one moment. Don't leave her like this .. > Violet's eyes met
Kay's and she watched as the dark headed man turned back towards the inner
apartments to see Danielle standing in the doorway.

Danielle stepped towards him. "I wanted to tell you 'good luck' with this
special woman, Kay. I hope she knows that she is getting a really terrific
man."

Kay smiled, *Thank you .. thank you so much, Danielle.* He held out his
arms to her and waited ..

Danielle stepped into them, hugging him tightly. She then stepped back
enough so that he could see her lips. "Thank you for everything. You are a
very special and wonderful friend...and I don't have many of those."

*Give people a chance to know you as I do .. and you will. Of that I am
sure.* He smiled at her and kissed her on the forehead, before releasing
her completely, *Take care of yourself.*

"Let me know how things go, okay? " Danielle said smiling softly.

He nodded, promising her that he would before he turned to Sabbith and
climbed up on his back. He waved a last time, and watched as the wind from
Sabbiths strong wings tossed her white blonde hair softly about her face
and he couldn't help but think that she would always be an angel to him .

Danielle watched as Sabbith took off and disappeared. She sighed softly.
"So, what do I do now?" Danielle thought to herself.
"Alone again..."

(You'll always have me) Violet said, and then added mischieviously (And I
hear that there are some new male searchlings who have arrived as well.)

Danielle laughed, feeling her mood lighten a bit. (Well, lets see if they
are searching for something other than a dragon, shall we?)

Respectfully Submitted,
Danielle and Violet
aka Kat Robertson

and

Kalewyn and Sabbith
aka Kristen Gant