A thin shaft of light drove any thought of sleeping from Ailill's mind.  
She yawned and stretched, her mind felt as though she were drifting 
through a soft white cloud.  She curled up under the covers.  It was 
then that the first touch of confusion floated into her mind.  The 
blankets felt rough beneath her fingers.  These were not her blankets.  
Those soft white clouds turned into a groggy fog, as her mind tried to 
remember the what had happened the night before.  

"Ailill?"  His soft voice and gentle touch swept away the fog, and 
brought it all raging back.  Tina, and Kendal.  Storm and the mating 
flight.  She struggled to control her rage.  How could he, and then...  
She just wanted to go, she wanted to crawl into a dark hole and...  She 
gathered up the sheets around her.  

Her voice was strained as she rose of the bed.  "I don't want to discuss 
it Kendal.  I just want to get out of here."

"But Ailill, please."  He pleaded,  "Just listen to me."

"I told you, I'm in no mood to discuss anything!"

"All I need is a minute, for gods' sake just let me explain."

"Explain what?"  She spun around to face him.  "You were sleeping with 
another woman!  You had no right to betray me like that!  You had no 
right to lie to me!  What did I ever do to you to deserve to be used.  I 
have always tried to help you,  I spoke to you when no one else would, I 
rushed to your side when you were dying in the waste.  I suffered 
through forest fires, and near drowning to help you, and what do I get 
for that?  I get to find you rolling around on the floor with some 
scantily clad slut!!!"

"I never asked you to do those things Ailill."

"You didn't have to!  That is what love is about!"  She sobbed, unable 
to take the pain and tension.

Kendal eased his arms around her, "Ailill I never meant to..."

"NO!"  She snapped!  shoving him away.  "You meant to Kendal."

He stiffened as she threw her anger in his face.  "Fine Ailill, if you 
don't want to talk then I suggest you leave."  

"Do you mind if I get my clothing first."  She hissed.

"Whatever!"  He stormed off into the back room.  To frustrated, hurt and 
angry to face her.

Half blinded by her tears she stumbled out of the bedroom in search of 
her clothing.  

(((Tag Norman, wanna say anything before she goes?)))


~*~*~*~*~*~On The Green~*~*~*~*~*~

Ailill was happy to have the day off.  She really didn't feel like 
drilling with the wing today, besides, she was still on medical leave.  
She didn't have clearance from a healer to go back to work.  

She sighed and sank down into the trample grass.  <What am I going to do 
Storm?>

<<About what?>>

<About everything...>

<<Your just depressed because of Ainu's rider.>>  From Storm's tone it 
was obvious the dragon didn't understand why her rider was so upset, but 
was sympathetic all the same.  <<You need to get your mind off of last 
night.>>

<Any ideas about how I could accomplish that would be great.>

<<How about an oiling?>>  The gray asked slyly.  <<I've got this one 
itchy spot that, well, I'm sure you get the point.>>

<It's as good a plan as any...>  Ailill ran off to fetch a jug of oil 
and then settled down to smoothing her dragons hide.  

She immersed herself in the task at hand.  Letting work drive the pain 
away.  She would think about it later, she would deal with it later.  

>Waylene stood and headed out to the green. It wasn't long before she
>spotted the girl oiling her swirling gray dragon. "Ailill?"

>The girl turned toward the Warrenlady. "Oh, hi .."

>Waylene smiled at her. Now that she had something to do, she could >put 
the rest behind her and worry about it later. "I wanted to see >how you 
were doing. I mean since Storm flew last night for the first >time.  Are 
you okay?"

"Oh, last night..."  She paused, the events of last night playing over 
in her mind.  

"Is something wrong?"  Waylene was instantly concerned by the waver in 
the girls voice.

"Well the mating flight was fine, I think.  I really can't remember much 
about the flight itself.  It's real fuzzy.  It's just that, well..."  
She paused swallowing hard.  "The events leading up to the flight 
weren't the ones I would have chosen."

"Would you like to talk about it?"  

"I don't know if I should, I mean, I don't even know if I have a reason 
to be upset.  It's not like we are mates, he has the right to sleep with 
anyone he wants to."  She stopped suddenly.  A single tear snaking it's 
way down her face.  She brushed it away angerly.  "I guess it was just a 
hard way to find out.  Walking in on him like that, seeing him with her.  
It was like a wraith curled up inside my chest was eating away at me.  
I've never felt so humiliated, so angry, so betrayed.  I felt like they 
were mocking me, laughing at me.  Gods!  When I found Kendal and 
Tina..."  

She scrubbed at the tears that slid down her face.  Why was she even 
bothering the warrenlady.  She glanced at Waylene, who look as pale as 
death.

"Are you okay, Waylene?"  Ailill questioned.  

The warrenlady nodded stiffly.  "Yes, I'm fine Ailill, would you like me 
to speak with Kendal?" 

Ailill shook her head quickly.  "Gods, no.  That would be even more 
humiliating.  I just want to forget it ever happened.  I don't want to 
deal with it."  

"You can't just push it aside Ailill, at some point you are going to 
have to face it."

<<She is right my love, you can not stay mad at Ainu's rider for ever.>> 
Storm interjected.

Ailill sighed.  "Storm agrees with you Waylene, but I just don't want to 
deal with it right now.  Is that okay?  Can I at least have some time to 
let it sink in?"  She struggled to keep the bitterness out of her voice.  
How could Waylene really understand what she was going through.  She 
knew her dragon didn't understand.  

"Of course you can Ailill, just don't wait to long.  There is too much 
conflict in this warren as it is,  Everyone seems to be at odds right 
now."  For a few brief moments Waylene looked as tired as Ailill felt.  
Maybe the warrenlady did understand.  

On impulse Ailill reached out and embraced the warrenlady.  she 
struggled not to sob,  "Thank you, Waylene."  She stepped out of the 
embrace.  "I'm sorry I'm so moody, I'm just having a hard time coping."

"It's understandable, Ailill."

The girl straightened herself and took a few deep breaths.  Regaining 
her composer.  "I'll manage, I always do."

"Just remember, you don't have to manage alone."

She grinned, "Thanks!"  


~*~*~NRPG:  Ailill and Waylene went through the same thing last night, 
only on different sides of the fence.  ;)  Kris?  Wanna add anything to 
the conversation, or leave it at that? ~*~*~

~*~*~Scene: Evening, on the green, after Koda's little display. ~*~*~

Ailill was confused by Koda's display.  Part of her wanted to follow the 
little healer but she realised that her company was not wanted.  Koda 
needed to settle down.  Besides, with her current problems she doubted 
she could help Koda.  But she did want to discuss something with 
Traknor.

She crossed the green to were the older man stood.  From the expression 
on his face Ailill could tell he was considering chasing after the 
healer. 

"Excuse me, Traknor?  Could I speak with you for a moment?"

"Certainly Ailill."

"Well, I've been giving a lot of thought to your call for a combat 
medic, and I think I'd like to take the job?  Since I won't be back on 
full duty for a while,  I will have the perfect opportunity to study 
with the healers."

"Are you sure about this Ailill, it will mean working a double shift 
when you are back on duty.  Both drilling with the wing and your 
studies."

The work would give her an Excuse to put of dealing with Kendal.  She 
nodded.  "I know it will be hard, but I'm willing."

He grinned,  "I'm glad to hear it Ailill.  You can speak with the 
healers about training tomorrow.  If we still have any healers."  He 
added bleakly.

"Why wouldn't we have any healers?"  Ailill was confused by his 
mumblings.  

"It's a long story Ailill, too long."

Storm poked into her mind.  <<We've been to depressed to want to hear 
gossip today, my love, but you are not the only one who's got their 
claws full.>>

~*~*~NRPG:  Well it sure took me long enough!  *g*

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