Day 3, midday


"What is it Trap?" She asked softly in a voice he could barely hear. Then
her eyes turned accusing. "You're leaving!"

"Dallie... You have to understand..." this was going to be one of the
hardest things he'd even have to do in his life. She didn't deserve it,
but bastard that he was, he was going to do it anyway. It was for the
best. For the both of them. "I have to leave" he said quietly. 

"But Trap" Danielle cried "You promised me. You promised me that you would
never leave me again." Her eyes hardened as she looked at him.

"I always meant to keep that promise my love.. and I thought I could. But
you know how it is for me here in the Warren," he pleaded for her
understanding. "I'll never get past my past here . they'll never accept
me. And I can't live like that any more Danielle."

"You don't love me enough!" she spat out at him angrily. "If you did, you
wouldn't do this." 
 
"It's because I love you so damn much that I would rather leave now then
later when we end up hating each other because I can't live the life you
want me to be. I can't be that perfect little Warren rider that you want
Danielle. It's gone to far for that and you know it. I tried love... for
you I really tried. But I 'm just not happy living this way." 

Danielle's eyes teared up. "And what about our baby?" she said softly, but
before he could even answer she added, "Thats it, isn't it? Its because
this baby may not be yours that you're leaving. You don't want to raise 
another mans child." 

"The baby has nothing to do with it," he denied. "It could very well be
mine for all we know. But a man wants his child to look up to him and how
will our child feel when he learns that others think his father is nothing
but a selfish bastard. Because you've heard the talk same as I have
Danielle and you know that's what the good here in Telnor think of me!"
 His tone was bitter now. He couldn't help it. Other's had made
sure he over heard them when he'd past them by. They'd made sure he could
hear them talking about him.

"Oh, so you want our child to think his father is a man who deserts his
mate and the child she is carrying." Danielle said bitterly. "I am sure
that he will think that is so much better." 

He bowed is head and looked away. His gut felt as if a dragon had smashed
against him. "No I would not want him to think that... But if that's what
you want to tell him... I won't be here to stop you....." He started for
the door then stopped knowing he couldn't let it end this way. "Damn it
Danielle. I tried. You don't know how hard I tried, but it hasn't been
easy. I'm no good at this... being a dragonrider who they treat like a
joke. I'm damn good at what I do and I can help people by being who I am.
But that's not something you can or will try to understand. It would have
made it so much easier but you wanted to put me in this little mold and
make me into something I wasn't and like a fool so deeply in love I
allowed it to happen without trying to fight it... But I can't do it any
longer. I have to be what I am or it'll destroy us both!"

"But in the life you want to lead, there is no place for me or our child."
Danielle said, her tears flowing now. "How can I understand when it means
that I will forever have to live my life without you, and our child 
 will never know his father.." She looked at him through a veil
of tears. "Just get out! I can't stand to even look at you. All those
promises...they meant nothing. I wish you had never come back!" She turned
away from him.

"You don't know how much I wish the same thing my love," he said quietly
to her back, not knowing if she was even listening to his words. "Not
because I didn't love you... you were the only thing that kept me going in
the years I was gone... But because I've hurt so many people since I
returned. I hurt you and Kay... if I'd stayed away you might have been
happy with him. Instead I ruined three lives by coming back. I never
wanted to do that. To hurt you... maybe this way you can find what you're
looking for and finally be happy. I do love you Danielle... so much that
I'll leave so you can find what you're looking for....." he turned then
and walked out of her life and didn't look back for he knew if he did he
might not leave. And leaving was the best thing for the both of them. 

Danielle listened as he walked out to the dragon ledge, tears streaming
down her face. She heard him load Diemas  and still did not turn around or
move until she heard Diemas taking off, then she realized that she would
lose him forever if she did not at least try. She turned quickly "Trap!"
she yelled, not watching where she was going, and suddenly felt herself
falling. As she hit the floor a sudden pain shot through her abdomen and
wetness spread down her legs. "No!" she screamed, as she felt herself
losing consciousness. [Violet, get help!] and suddenly things were black.

Respectfully submitted,
Danielle/Violet
aka Kat Robertson

and

Traplin/Diemas
aka Barb Matthews



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                     Curiosity killed the cat...
                  But satisfaction brought her back.
                  
                Kat Robertson (katmandu@havencomm.com)
                    http://www.indy.net/~katmandu